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we had a baby!

this blog just took a turn for the better!

we welcomed our daughter, 

rory jane hunt on august 2nd

at 9:38 in the morning.

she came 3+1/2 weeks early.

we were at a phish concert and my water broke.

my ob is away one week a year & that was the week.

i was able to stick to my birthing plan

of welcoming our child sans medication

& without medical intervention.

laboring and delivering is such an

intense experience.

jim was the most amazing partner.

i couldn't have done it without his empathy,

support, love and strength.

when i gave the final push & we found out

it was a girl, this calmness washed over me.

our daughter, for who we dreamt, wished &

prayed so damn hard for was finally here.

and to top it off, she was absolutely perfect

weighing in at 5lbs+11oz.

one more time...

okay, i'm pretty serious this time- i'm back! i've missed blogging & now have more to share than ever.. but am also busier than ever. prepare yourselves for extreme baby sharing. 

here's me and my girl last night on our walk. this moby wrap carrier is awesome. I made dinner with her in it, ate & then walked the neighborhood. 

thanks for the hand-me-down sarah!

belly.

we're freshly back from vacation.

here's a sneak peak of what's to come..

our future.

my awesome sister cara sent me this shirt! who knows what the future will hold for us, but by goddess, our baby will be raised to be a badass feminist/pro-feminist (if it happens to be a dude).

zoe rose planer.

my friends make the most beautiful babies.

sarah, mark & big bro lucas welcomed

baby zoe rose into the world!

she is a sweet & petite little cutie, just

like her momma! 

kirkwood festival.

we strolled down to the kirkwood festival

this past weekend. such a cute little community!

kathryn, me, karen, tara & tess!

twins.

i told jeff to do the tess face.

baby tess is so easy to love on!

my main squeeze slim in frisbee action.

jared & tess.

we had a camp event earlier & slim was 

logo-ed out!

the tasting.

i can't believe i did it, but the following

night, after the lewis show, and a huge work

event for me, our annual caregiver retreat...

slim & i got all jazzed up & went to a fundraiser event 

for my agency called the tasting.

it was a delicious & fun event.

i didn't event miss the booze, there was plenty of

desserts to keep me busy!

arm candy game on fleek.

i got to see & hug my friend & 

newly past colleague, greer!

my amazing clutch & belly.

my feet were so tired. 

i slept so well that night!

lewis live.

we made the road trip to athens

to see jenny lewis.

it was a great show with the best of friends!

nikki lane opened and was super fun.

this is my view from the special section

i got access to from my fabulous cori's pal roger.

i sat up there for a while, but went down & joined

my girls up front for lewis.

those huge balls are fun at first,

then super annoying. poor lewis got hit

in the head a few times.

#nailedit

lewis crew: lea, karen, me & kathryn.

bring on the next show!

i'm back, hi!

hey friends.

i've been absent from the blog scene.

why? i've been super busy.

i'm usually always busy, but always found time to 

add to my little spec in the blog-osphere

because it brought me some freedom & a space of

my own to post aspects of my life i wanted to remember

or random things i found funny or awesome.  

it's so crazy because i've been thinking about 

blogging constantly over the last 7 months, 

like on the daily- but the fear

 of un-authenticity has prevented me.

i haven't even signed into this blog since my last

posting last november. 

the universe works in mysterious ways...

my last post was recapping a jenny lewis show.

it was an amazing show that has since encouraged

a very heavy playing of  the voyager at our home.

this album is so good. 

in the song one of the guys there's one line

that hit me so hard the first time i heard it

(which was live, at the show)

'just another lady without a baby'

 at that time, and for the two years prior

i was struggling with

infertility that was all consuming,

mind, body & soul consuming.

my life at the time revolved around 

my doctors office & my life was

separated into two week increments:

ovulation & menstruation, closely followed by

intense disappointment, frustration & sadness.

a few weeks after the jenny lewis show

i found out i was pregnant. 

it was the first night of hanukkah & one day

before my 30th birthday.

a hanukkah miracle we proclaimed!

why the connection with jenny lewis

 you  might be wondering?

i'm seeing her tonight in athens.

of all days to get my blog juices going..

to sign in and see that last post was really weird.

it's taken so much for me to get back on here.

(please note that i do not taking myself or this blog too seriously,

or believe that anyone seriously missed it- but i missed it.

 i know it's mostly filled with pictures of my mundane

 everyday life, my dogs & husband & friends

 & random pictures & promotes my completely

 lefty political affiliations & ideas)

my biggest aversion to blogging was not

talking about my pregnancy news.

i had so many times read statuses & blogs

about people's happy baby news & hated them.

a mix of jealousy, angst, wanting to be happy for them

but unable to get over myself.

i did not want to be THAT person.

THAT person was who i wanted to be for so long.

but when i became THAT person, 

THAT person was still so foreign to me. 

i just thought about the women in the club

i had previously been a member of.

the club no one wants to be in, but you find some

solace in other people's similar, shared pain.   

after some really solid advice/therapy from my (therapist)

friends, i realized that i could somehow be the hope that

others needed. hearing stories of women finally

conceiving after under going the same things i did

was powerful- still tarnished with jealousy, but always

gave me hope & strength & energy to surge on 

(a fertility joke for those "in the know").

at some point i'll share more of our infertility

journey. it's probably nothing you haven't heard before,

but to me, it's so personal & real. 

the experience is so crazy difficult to think

of even now, six months out.

so, hey. i'll let you know how the show goes.